I Don’t Feel Like It with Hep C
There are times when you just don’t feel like doing something. It may be something important or something small. When you’re not in the mood, it feels like a burden. I personally think it’s important to listen to your inner voice. See if you can identify with this list of things that we don’t feel like doing with hep C.
I don’t feel like:
Getting out of bed most mornings. It’s nice to set the alarm 30 minutes early just to be able to hit the snooze button a few times. It’s a nice little way to trick my mind into thinking I’m sleeping in.
Going to the bathroom. Honestly, if I could get someone to go for me, that would be great. The little bedside thing is probably stretching it a bit too far. What I really wish for is a way for someone else to go for me while they’re in there. It’s hard to sleep with a full bladder.
Cleaning up after anybody else. I can barely clean up after myself. Most of the time I don’t even do that.
Looking in the mirror. Those dark circles make me look awfully tired. There’s no need to look good anyway. I’m just going back to the couch.
Cooking. All this talk about healthy eating makes me tired. I don’t even feel like getting a frozen pizza out of the oven.
Talking on the phone. First I look at caller ID and then decide. If it’s the lottery calling to tell me I’m a winner, I feel like answering. Otherwise, sometimes I don’t feel like it.
Walking. I mean across the room. Going for a walk down a trail is out of the question. Maybe I’ll feel like walking into the kitchen later.
Fixing my hair. So I lie about it and say that I’m going for the punk rocker look. I tell people that it’s sticking up on purpose. That little bent place at the side? It wasn’t easy to get it to stay that way.
Going to bed. This couch feels awesome. I want to stay here a long long time. Why bother to work my way into the bedroom? I don’t feel like moving right now. That could change after my nap.
Take a bunch of expensive pills. Trying to remember to take them on time is a hassle. I don’t always feel good after I take them.
Talking about how I got hepatitis C. Why does everyone have to harp on that?
Worrying about it any more. All of a sudden the issue of money comes up for medicine and tests. That makes my neck tense and my stomach hurt. The voices in my head are wearing me out.
Dying. I want to live a lot more days. Whole bunches of them. This is my one shot at life. I want to move into a bright future.
So, there are a lot of things I don’t feel like doing. But I get up and do them. Most of them, anyway. Okay, I do the important ones. Because I want to live. I take my pills. I eat good food. I empty my bladder and talk to doctors, but the rest of that stuff? Nah, I don’t feel like it right now.