My Biggest Regrets With Hepatitis C
Last updated: September 2023
We all have things we wish had never happened. Looking back at over my life, I feel a fist punch in my gut when certain memories pop up.
Some things were not my fault. Nobody has power over every situation. My biggest regrets with hep C are things that I never thought would happen to me.
My biggest regret
When I was a little kid, life was getting up every day and doing things most children do. I went to school. I knew every street in my neighborhood and who lived there. When I was bored, finding a friend to play with was easy.
I ate at other kids' houses. They were like family. My friends came to my house too and spent the night a lot.
Even though I still lived in the neighborhood, my friend group expanded in high school. There were a lot of smaller schools that poured into a bigger city school. My childhood friends drifted away, and new friends took their place.
After a semester at university, I started working in a hospital. I was so proud to be a certified nurse assistant and enrolled in nursing school. Soon, I had an even bigger set of friends.
After getting married and having my daughter, life got really busy. I had nagging health problems but never knew exactly why. The doctors couldn’t pin it down. Not pressing for more answers is one of my biggest regrets with hep C.
I was using caffeine to stay awake and get things done. Sometimes, my heart would race, but I felt very tired. I pushed even harder.
I smoked cigarettes to keep my energy up. Many days, drinking soda and smoking were my body’s fuel.
I had never lived in another body, so I didn’t know what health felt like. Another of my biggest regrets is not taking better care of my body.
I actually went to a medical school library searching for answers. I wrote many pages of notes. Another one of my biggest regrets is that there was not even a name for hep C. It was called Non-A or B.
When bruises appeared on my body, I just ignored them and pushed myself to keep going. Soon, my ability to sleep or stay alert grew worse.
It took me longer to do just about everything. I ate as healthy as possible, but in the end, my biggest regret is that I was not diagnosed sooner.
My liver totally failed before I could be treated. I was finally cured, but I got liver cancer because of hep C
Today, I am thankful for a liver transplant. I’m finally living a healthy life. Thanks to medical science, I can spend the rest of my life getting over past regrets.