Always Alone

By trishy1982

1 min read

I used to shot up meth with someone I thought forever otherwise I wouldn't use a needle anyway. It wasn't forever. I was diagnosed with hep c in 2014, and I was a raging alcoholic. Oh so bad. Anyway, my oldest daughter and I have an apartment together now. I need a job but no one believes me when I tell them I'm so very tired. I can sleep for six days at a time. I know I've seen me do it, and yes I'm sure depression is part of that. My health insurance wont pay for treatment until I'm really badly off. Just got done being denied for the second time. I feel I'm going to lose the only stable home we have known for a few years. I've been on my own since I was 13. Homeless over eight years and sometimes I fear leaving my apartment. Afraid it will be gone by the time I come back. Sometimes I feel like ending this cuz its gonna end so why not sooner?

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Kelly McNamara Community Admin
Hi <inline-mention user-id="3518246" username="trishy1982"/> . I can't imagine everything you're going through but please just know there's always someone who's willing to listen and to hear you. If you ever feel like you need help, don't hesitate to contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or online at <a href='http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/' target='_blank' rel='noopener noreferrer ugc'>http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/</a> or any local options such as medical professionals, counselors, or support groups. Also, Help-4-Hep (<a href='http://www.help4hep.org' target='_blank' rel='noopener noreferrer ugc'>http://www.help4hep.org</a>) can be a great resource for any living with hepatitis C. They can walk you through an insurance denial and options available. We're all thinking of you. Sometimes online support comes a little easier, and the community's here whenever you need. Warmly, Kelly, <a href='http://HepatitisC.net' target='_blank'>HepatitisC.net</a> Team Member
1. trishy1982 Member
 Wow thank you everyone honestly I forgot about this place and I ty for caring and taking the time to respond I really really really appreciate it this truly warm my heart❤️
trishy1982 Member
Thank you very much i appreciate your help.
mrnobody Member
I really hope everything has worked out for you.
1. trishy1982 Member
 Thank you so much ❤️
trishy1982 Member
Well I got the treatment pills but scared to take them when I live alone my whole life the scary things Ive always had to do it alone with no support from family or friends and it's made me so cold I don't open up to people and I feel I'm destined to be alone for the rest of my life.
1. MatthewFerry Community Admin
 Hi Trishy! Thanks for letting us know how you are–we're sorry to hear that you feel alone. I do just want to commend you for sharing, that takes courage. Please know that you are not alone–our community is here with you. Please let us know if you have questions about treatment. Best, Matt (Team Member, <a href='http://HepatitisC.net' target='_blank'>HepatitisC.net</a>)
2. trishy1982 Member
 Thank you I appreciate it
Emma Currie Member
First off I want to start by saying that I completely empathize with what you are going through. Completely. I am a recovered amphetamine user and alcoholic (3 years this June.) and I have dealt with suicidal ideation my whole life. The fatigue is real. There are some days I couldn't get out of bed, actually there were a lot of days like that. I am so sorry you are struggling to fund your treatment and have your health insurance company listen to you. If you need anything, even just to rant, don't hesitate to reach out to me!
1. trishy1982 Member
 Thank you so much you bring me hope I'm on my second month of treatment and I'm hoping that this works I've become overweight do to sleeping a lot and my lower back kills me but I know I can do this but thank you again so much.
2. Karen Hoyt Member
 Wow! You've accomplished so much. This is amazing news. You know what? That weight will come off. You can begin to lift the cloud of depression. Everything can get better with time. Getting rid of the virus is your first step, and then just allowing yourself time to recover. My heart is bursting with pride for you. I lived with it so many years and didn't know why I felt so poorly and down at times. I can hear your strength "I know I can do this". Even if you don't feel like moving around much, see if you can open the window and do some yoga type stretches. Maybe look for some that will help your lower back. I truly truly look forward to hearing from you again. xo Karen

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