Moment In Time

We are familiar with the phrase “one day at a time”. The meaning for me is to not worry about tomorrow so much and focus on getting through this day, whatever challenge we face. It is a slogan or credo by some as you may heave heard before.

For some, it is hard to plan for tomorrow when you feel like it may not come, or what you need today is the most important thing in this moment. Addiction can cause this, so can an empty belly in need of food, or a place to sleep that is safe and secure, but other things can as well and they are just as urgent if they feel that way to you.

You may be asking yourself what this has to do with hep C, and I understand how esoteric it may seem to you. It is a little foreign to many people who have never considered these things or had these feelings or thoughts. Many of us have, and the emotions that can occur when we are being attacked by hep C can cause desperation or urgency that is not easily understood in the moment.

I recall some very difficult days back when I was sick with the effects of hep C. There were times I honestly wondered if I could possibly tolerate another day of the constant suffering I experienced. Oh it was bad and I felt so sick with fatigue and nausea and there was no relief from it day in and out.

At some point I recalled something a psychologist once reminded me of about living in the now, because I was experiencing terrific anxiety which was overwhelming at times and would freeze me in this place of dread I will not forget, not ever. Living in the now is as I interpreted a sort of letting go of my feelings. It is a kind of meditation where I tell myself it will get better while at the same time try to think of nothing. You see, in the state of feeling so helpless I was getting a constant flow of thoughts and none were good. The emptying of my thoughts could allow me to escape this onslaught of feelings that only ever made me feel worse.

It took some practice but as things did get better and I was usually able to clear my head of all the clutter, which overwhelmed me and added to the misery. In time the worst would past and I discovered that even though I did not feel entirely well again an important break was developed that allowed for times when I felt better. I learned how to celebrate these moments as a victory and to embrace them with joy. It really did make it easier for me. It might help you, but I make no guarantees it will but it is worth a try if you are experiencing anything like what I have described.

I remind you that I am not a guru, a doctor or specialist. Some people may need professional help like I sought out when needed, and if you need to see a counsellor or psychologist, psychiatrist, please don’t hesitate. There is no shame in asking for help ever.

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