Falling Apart with Hepatitis C.

Falling Apart with Hepatitis C

I’m a firm believer in letting it all hang out. Some days we wake up grateful that we are still breathing. Other days, we feel like we’re just taking up space. It’s okay to feel that way sometimes. Every now and then, it’s good to have a nervous breakdown. In fact, I think that falling apart with hepatitis C is kind of normal… well, at least it’s real.

Falling apart looks different for everyone. I have a few personal favorite ways that I’d like to share with you. Here they are in no particular order:

Chew someone out – It could be someone who lives in your house, or a stranger who answers the phone at your insurance company. You don’t have to chew them out in person. It works even if you do it all alone before or after you talk with them. Get loud, talk crazy stuff, vent all your frustrations. Then go wash your face and take deep breaths til your heart rate calms down.

Speak your truth – Start sentences with the words “I feel” and then fill in the blank. Admit it if you feel hurt, ignored, abandoned, neglected, forgotten, useless, or disappointed. Last month I walked 4 miles down a trail and yelled my truth about hepatitis C and all that it had cost me. It helped me feel better to speak my truth to the red rocks.

Forgive – Realize that your family didn’t set out to be messed up. Nobody really does that on purpose. At one time everyone had dreams of happiness, even you. Instead of going homicidal on your friends or your relatives, let them off the hook. You’ll feel better. They may not change, but you’ll be amazed at how much lighter you’ll feel.

Find faith – Faith in God or a Higher Power gives you a steady place to stand on. It is kind of like when you fall apart, Someone is there to hold the pieces for you til you can put them back together.

Love Yourself – This is easier said than done. How many of us really know how to put ourselves first? I’m still learning. It’s a good thing to ponder on when you’re falling apart with hepatitis C. Somebody has got to take care of you. Start now.

Accept reality – It sucks to realize that your body is sick and in pain. We’re all hurting in some way. We’re all scared and trying to be healed. We’re all looking for love. We’re all a little crazy and falling apart. We’re all worthy of the best in life.

Let go – When I’m finished falling apart, my mind and body are a little tired. I realize that all my self obsessed thoughts are simply proof that it was time for a little self care. I see it for what it is and let it go for the moment.

Move on – Hopefully after falling apart with hepatitis C, you feel more open and free. Now is the time to move on toward making a pot of soup or taking a long hot bath. You might call someone you vented at in order to make amends. You might bow your head in Silence and ask for help or go sit under a tree with a glass of tea. Sometimes after falling apart, I need an antacid or some ginger. My muscles feel shaky, but my heart and mind feel better. I hope yours do too.

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